5/2/2012

I am pretty sure I have no feelings anymore.

Last night a girl who I used to consider my friend started bringing up bad memories for me. Asking me how I felt when a guy used me last semester till he couldn’t get any more from me. She asked me if I felt worthless, if I felt like my heart was ripped out.

All I could reply was with “I don’t feel anything.” And that’s the truth. I don’t feel anything anymore. The last guy just ignored me. You would think any normal girl would cry or feel hurt or something. Yes, I felt those things to a certain extent. But it only lasted a day or so. Then I felt nothing again.

I’m OK without feelings. They are messy and make things complicated. I’m fine not having them.